My feet hurt. I walked alot yesterday taking photos for work of the parade as it was lining up. It was a lot of fun and good excersize. So now I am not wanting anything greasy which is a good sign to have. It's crazy how I have started more vegan type foods. Or just a lack of meat. Well outside of Tuna and chicken occasionaly. Grease weights me down. But that is a different topic for another time.

The tug of war rages on again, which is a good sign that there is a struggle or aim to reach. Just two more days of Derby then work slows down to where we all can breathe a lil again. I can't wait.

After that I think I will have a sit down with my boss and ask if I can get a schedule change of some type. I am missing alot in life with my work load.

I ponder what more I can do to reach out at Jeff street. They see me come in at night for whatever reason and they light up in hopes they can go to the lab. I know I make a difference there but how much more can I make a difference?

With Sojourn I really hope in the new building to start an after shool program or lab for them. I may not be able to run it but I would love to get it started. At least help. I think there is so much that could come out of it.

I guess today I officially will be taking a first step away from sittin at the crossroads. Actually I have been slowly walking away and into the direction I feel called into. I have been opening up and much greater honesty with my community group and with another friend. Just opening and letting them know how dry and out I have felt. And knowing that I have support there has been a great help.

Today I have a lunch meeting for business and then personal. So we shall see what comes of it. It seems that it is for me to bring others into my life on a deeper level in making it through life. The journey will involve others. One step at a time. Today I hope to get some sort of idea or direction, inventory something.

Life has been ok, it is still one day at a time though. I have prayed a few times, but I still can't really read the bible right now.