Well last night just wasn't very well. But it ended pretty good I thought. After my second shot that officially gave me the drunken status I had played some 80's music and put togethere a puzzle. I had a phone call form my brother, which is rare and it was a great call. Then another friend called and it was good as wel. But it was more directely related to the night I was having etc.

I started teh puzzle a few days ago and had half of it left, but last ngiht I pressed on and it was done. No box to see what it looked like. It was a real puzzle. So I went to bed feeling better. But I had to get drunk to take the stress off. I have never done that. But it was very needed I see now.

Life is crazy as I never know one day to the next if it will be a good one or bad one. With my faith and spirituality coming into play its just getting confusing. I guess christians are just as bad as those who are not. So what's the difference? That thought it playing over and over in my mind.

Well for now I can let that wait. Today is Jeff Street. The one day a week I like. In fact after Monday the week all goes downhill from here. And tongiht is Narnia night. So today goes well and then work tomorrow. Back to the sadness I guess.

I take one step forwards and then three back. I do not see any victories to celebrate.