I saddens me how I can have a few good or ok days and then I get to work and I get drained all over again and loose track and not pray. Anyways that is besides the point. THen again, no it's not as it does bother me.

Today I slept the afternoon away. But I did watch some of Walk the Line...and it's very good. I can't wait to go back and check out the rest of it.

But last ngiht I got on the treadmill for the second time in one week. So that is a blessing itself. But now that I am at work, I may go again here tonight. If all goes well I might be done early from here. I hope to go home and do some reading.

Now the fun part is the stuff I have wanted to ponder upon. I just have not had the time and when I take the time I end up falling asleep. That sucks. But some of the ahrshness of my faith is coming out. Who knows where it will go. I am still having to deal with the fact how angry and frustrated I am. I can't pinpoint what...but it's making me short in all areas of life.

As much as I know folks will tell me take it to the cross that the war has already been won, I know this will not settle my heart very much if at all. Maybe settle it as big as a grain of sand. I think, no feel I need somehting a lil down to earth here and now before I start looking or understanding the supernatural aspects of help. I gotta live here and take care of here first.

But then I think that my own "Theology" is now getting in the way and I may be a a crucial point in my faith. But I don't think anyone is going to understand. I tried a theology class but someone decided to take over the conversation and confuse me even further. So yeah I am still mad at him. If I get the chance would I ever tell him? I dunno. He pretty much ignores me anyways when I am around.

I hope the weather warms up here soon, I think I need time outside with my camera. I need some release.