Not much going on here today but knowing that I really need some God time. Just knowing that he is the only source to battle through my sins. But that's hard to do while worn out from the job. In fact so worn out I just had to nap again. So there goes my off day...sorta.

I still have some soul searching to do and come to a few more understandings with who I am. But then again so does everyone. In real news I thoguth the interview went ok. It was the first time I have not walked away feeling great about the interview in a long time. As those are the ones that I do not get, if I can get them to tell me anything at all. But they are calling my list of references so that's a good sign. It will offer better hours in a more stable schedule...I will just be waking up super early now, but least it will be stable. It's all in his hands for now. Just gotta sit n wait to see what comes ofit all.

I am reading more into sex and I am seeing such a barrier of sexual discrimination...against men. Men tend to come out the greater perverts out there when I know there are some women just as bad. I have seen women on the sexual offender lists and even read about teachers getting busted in child pronography ring and even teachers having sex with students. It seems that the sex with students crimes if you are a woman you get off with a much less harsh sentence than if you were a male and did the same thing. And then the woman's looks seem to be a factor in that too. I am not making this stuff up this is in a few different websites in the news and it is a common trait. I have yet to see a woman have sex with a student and get the same sentence of a man.

This is sending out the wrong message that makes men come up to be the bad guys here. Both men and women are guilty of this. Why do we make it worse on the men for the same crime? Then the punishment of this is not as pretty either. We live in an unforgiving society where we would rather punish than heal the person. Ok yes they sinned they wronged another but instead of getting them help or trying to get them away from this lifestyle we want to mess them up for the rest of thier lives. There has to be a point where people can learn from their mistakes from the heart not becasue of the punishment we give them.

I know there are some men that need to get their senses in order, yet they do not and let this problem get out of hand. It seems all the time I hear of sexual predators. In fact there is a website that if they cath you they will post the chat and a pic if you send one of theier naked selves for everyone to see, and then they turn this info over to authorities. Yet there are no women on that list which, I am glad to see this list, I am angered that it is only men. This same sight will take down the information, off the website, if they have documented proof that you are doing something about this act, therepy seeking help of some sort etc. That I do like. Finally someone saying its up to you to change your heart, change that, and we take your info down. Not a bad deal.

Life down here is differrent than what God wants of us. Our hearts are hardened and we put labels on unwanted people, porn stars, prostitutes, drug addicts, homeless, sexual preadators, criminals etc. We want them to go away and stop, yet very seldom are we walking with them or doing anything to help them. We often want them to pay for thier sins and wallow in hell than change theier hearts and be christlike towards them. I to am guilty of this as anyone else is no matter the degree. An ounce of sin is a pound of sin. No different. Why do we punish thse people and not do anthing to see change of heart, repentance, and being reborn in the word to become a new being. We wait put most of these on death row, let a preist save him last minute and then kill them off. The punishment does not always fit the crime.

On this side of the clouds anyways.

Yes sex is all around us. Some take it too far and blame is put everywhere to convict (for the worse) and change their life forever and do nothing and let the problem go on and on in their hearts.

I am really starting to hate this world...sometimes. We won't walk with each other, we label each other. We demand fairness and equality and we give only equal to greater than one. Man will dissapoint us. Man not men. The being known as Man will let us down and hurt us. God is the source.