Yeah I was real frustrated there for a few days. it was hard to see past anything at all. Still can't see too far ahead nor past myself right now. Buter better than what it was.

I am running my spiritual batteries low. I just can't seem to take myself before God. I just can't. And I dunno why. My dreams are weird again. I ponder if that is God's way of telling me something. As I sit here too many thoghts are coming to me right now. But having some good alone time is great. No roomates are here so I can chill out and focus in on some God time.

But Still no focus. I am wandering what is my use for God? Or am I just kinda here floating along? Why.................ok I can't type now too much is hittng me at once so I better think this one through first.