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 Sunday, April 09, 2006
Ya know I tired to work thogh being angry. But it seems that I am burdening folks while I am going through some stuff. And I am being made into someone I am not. I was not angry but things I said are taken wrong and thrown back in my face.
So I sit here drunk. Yes for the first time in my life I am drunk from being upset rahter than at a social setting. The world wants to make me into someone I am not all becasue I am struggling and trying to understand. I so want to give up on church or faith. As those in faith hurt me more than those who are not. Tomorrow is Narnia night...I pray that it goes so well I forget about life for one evening. Tomorrow is Jeff Street as well. I can't wait for that either. But do I have another shot tonight? or am I drunk enough?
posted by Tom at 8:02 PM
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1 Comments:
Dear Tom,
We mourn with you. What depth is so deep that you cannot see the light? I don't know what to tell you right now. I have no quick-fix answers. There are a few things we know, a few things that we can hold fastly to. Our King Jesus is good and the church, His church is good because He loves it, and for that reason alone. I gave up on the church, declared it the adulturer, when I was the one that made her as such. But Christ never gives up on His bride. He purifies her and presents her to Himself as perfect and blameless. You love Jesus, Tom Branch, keep loving Him and you'll love what he loves again; the taste will return to your mouth and the pleasures of His love in the community of believers isn't lost for good. ^%$#!, I'm the one that needed to hear what I just said, you've gotta love our God's sense of humor don't you? Anyway, Em and I'd call you, but we don't have working phones. We love you Tom. We love you and Christ is good.
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