Last night I was reading some more into one the book Never Beyond Hope, by J.I. Packer. I read about Jacob and then Samson's mother who was unnamed in the bible. Now here is the best part.

When I was reading Jacob it was about family. From the beginning his family was messed up. From his mother helping him to cheat his brother of his birthright and then all the way near the end where his sons sold of their brother Joseph. And even in between it took him a while before he was really conencted with God. It really wasn't until he wresteled with God out in the desert that he then became close with God.

Now coming from a broken home much like Jacob did this part did touch me a lil. As it was something I could relate to. Not that the same things happened but that the family wasnt complete or whole.

But that is when I just felt something different. In seeing the whole picture of Jacob's crazy family life that down the road his son Joseph set many things great again. That the bad things that happen in a family God will set straight again. And this was very comforting. It may take some time but to remain faithful until then. I guess I would need to go back to those certain pages and pull from it what i felt.