I don't recall ever trying to get this prpared for an interview. In fact this one is more like a pop quiz, how much do i want back into photography. i have had a very long hiatus and so want to be back. Tomorrow I may have that opportunity.

I really loved Photo 1 and 2 when I was able to go to JCC. I did not care about any other class but those. I have had many fun times and decent projects. Some are hanging on my wall as we speak. And then after a very long dry spell I hear of an opening for the instructor for that very same class. Photo 1. I go in for an interview in the AM.

I do not know much about protfolios so I threw one together as best I could. It is more of my work in Photo I. Its at least some sort of graphical representation. Then I may get to pimp my website in show even further what all I can do while I was in the program.

But does this make me enough to be a teacher now? It is a fun challenge I would love to take. I would be relearning while I was teaching. It is a great opportunity and I can work it as a part time job and not interfere with my current job.

Now I fear I may be getting too wishful again. I would liek this job, but I ponder if this is the job God wants me to have? Is this this direction? I should be thankful but I should not be anxious about it. But I cannot help but to. Maybe photogaphy has become an idol in my life and I do desire a job in that career.

Who knows. I know there is a desire to have a somewhat happy job. This would be a secondary job so it would be supplemental income which would be a good releif right about now. Help me get a nice head start.

Ok I just did the time taking task of shaving. I actually liked where my beard was. It is character I think, at least since it does nto ever grow in completely. Oh well now my face is nice n smooth...

I am going to take nyquil tonight to get some sleep. Start a sleep ritual for the evening to get tired and then pass out. I hope to be up real early at work, to leave for the interview on time, so I hope it does not rain until much later in the day after that. But if it does, I will prepare somehow.

Ok shave, check, clean clothes laid out, check, resume and refrences printed, check, portfolio, check....ok I think I am ok so far.

But to pray once again, that I follow God's will and that I follow his lead tomorrow. If bad news I just fear I will take a spiral down, and get that trapped feeling again with my current situation. One day at a time, and seek God. I pray there are folks near me that will help me run to God if that happens to be the case. I know all I have to offer is myself. And that's what I am running wit...well offer what self god wants me to offer.