Last week was a draining week. It was full of many emotions. With death, birth, farewells, serving, cleaning, moving, roommate issues and even work.

A few spiritual days as well. My faith right now is on a rollercoaster. I can be reading and being in a spiritual state and then go off sinning in a mtter of minutes, sometimes in the middle of reading or pondering.

I have not prayed or really been reading much lately. How I can go to walking towards godliness and jump off back into my own ways.

Much is on my mind. So very much. And it is almost discouraging.

I have been listening to some of Mark Driscoll's stuff and one of the other pastors from Mars Hill...it is just too convicting that I have very little emptional reaction to it. Its just powerful.

I am trying to get in touch with a few others to reach out and speak to them about my current state of faith. It is not good.

I have a dream, a vision not of mine own but that of what God wants me to be...at least that is what I believe.

Yet there are too many idols in my life that keep me from it all...many indeed.

Right now I am just talking of whatever comes into mind.

I think I might change the header graphic.....still keep it a journey seeking...but it is a path of intimacy and repentance.

I dunno, just alot running through my mind right now.