Ahh another year older. Facing the oncoming bald spot and one gray hair. The general concesous is to shave my head when the bald spot comes in too deep where I comb over the spot. Today was a memorable birthday. The first b-day in as long as I can remember that I had friends over. Just even spending time with me at dinner and chillin out afterwards. Even Had a slice of cake and one made espresso icing for the cupcakes. It was awesome.

Both parents called today for bday wishes. I was able to talk to my dad for a moment and i totally blew off my mom. I want to talk to her but not today. Not on this day. Now the cards I got were cool. Just spending it with friends is worth much praise.

I have not had much time the last two days for God centered time. I think that is where I am at now. Time to focus and just breathe. Looking at this as another year here on earth and reflecting where I have been this last year, well this last 6 months has been a ride within itself.

I would have to sum up as the birth of intimacy.

I have been able to spend more time with other people and really learn a few things about folks. Really see where a deeper level of intimacy with God is needed as well as it is in others. Others have came into my life on this deeper intimate level and are a part of this journey. There is progress but there is none. It is being written daily minute by minute. It is only a beginning, as such is life. It should always be a beginning, progress yes, but always getting to point B never arriving. This is said as a quest or a journey. Yes the goal can be reached yet if one stops then it is over, if one does not then it is always getting there.

More will need to come into my life for intimacy and I will need to open to others on a more intimate level. There is a change internally right now in my life.

28 years ago (well 29 if you count the months prior) God chose to bring me into this world. Now looking into it as what is my story? What is the purpose he has in store for me. It has been 28 years in the making. I know the settings 28 year ago are not where they are today. Even thinking about the pain and sorrows through life has brought me here to this point.

I think it's just time to wrap it up.....this year of life has been intimacy.

And more to come.