Tom Branch - Roads of Faith

Several ups and several downs. I let the downs win. I for whatever reason (it must be a human thing) like pain and suffering. I see that my self centered-ness and pride are so huge in life right now. Yes helping serve has helped me learn about my pride and to love and serve others. But after the doors close and folks go home...it comes back to me time. When there is no one else there I seek to please myself....be more than lazy and unproductive, eat when I am bored or not stop when I feel I should so that I can savor that taste just a little more, buy things I know I should not or oversepnd in others as a result of carelesness, dream of a fantasy life of great job and pretty women and filled with me being the hero.

How much time to I spend here on earth? It has increased but I cannot stop myself or tell myself no. There is not God there is me, until others are around that is. At least that is how I seem to be living.

Now I see that PRIDE is becoming a red alert issue for me. It is blocking me in so many areas I cannot be happy or at least able to easily run with the flow.

Something has got to change.

4 Comments:

Sonya Triggs-Wharton said...: I think we're all a little self-centered. It seems that even though we have all these new ways of connecting (email, text, cell, PDA, Blackberry, etc.), we'd be more in touch than ever but it seems to have had the exact opposite effect.

I know my favorite time of the day is going home, shutting the door, turning off my cell, plugging into my Ipod and relaxing. Selfish? Probably. Essential? Definitely.

As long as you are serving God (through serving others) you are alright. And if you need more direction, just spend some of that alone time praying - God will always point you in the right direction.

Don't be so hard on yourself....; Monday, April 03, 2006 6:55:00 PM
iggie said...: it's late, just wanted to say hello. you're making me wonder why we let the downs get us downs so. i don't have the luxury to let that happen, but it's really easy to go downhill; Wednesday, April 05, 2006 10:07:00 PM
Bobby said...: Pride is at the core of all our sin. It eats at us from the inside. At least know that you're not alone in that. And remember that the only cure for it is to humble ourselves before the cross and live in the reality of what Christ has done for us.; Thursday, April 06, 2006 8:15:00 AM
Anonymous said...: Hey. I've been meaning to say this for a long time: Thanks for linking to me on your blog (for both sites I guess).

Today, I also put a link to you, as I have begun reading your blog and enjoy it immensely!

God bless!; Saturday, April 08, 2006 5:39:00 PM

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