Ahhh tired I am yet a few words and thoughts are on my mind. I don't want to talk, I just want that time with God. So I read some. Got a card in the mail from a friend that had a scripture written down. I read it. Kinda cool stuff.

but right now on my mind is my willingness and want. As in how much do I want repentance? How much do I want this new life God is calling me for?

How do I feel right now? Good. I guess I can say. But knowing that things are going to go God's way not mine....I will need acceptance. Getting ready to hit a dumpy road.....this I will need God's streanth and empowerment on.

I am going to need to come to terms one I need to let go of the things I want that are dragging me down. I am going to have to become more accepting of God's will and accepting the things I do not know or understand. And will also have to learn to work with others, bring community into my life more so than I am. I cannot do this alone, so I will need to start down a deeper journey than the one I am already on.

There are more thoughts on this, but its close to bed time...but Im thinking on God as best I can.