Here at work I sit but only my normal schedule. I hope to adjust afew things to get out of here in good time. I pray, well I should but I feel too selfish when I pray like that.

I do miss the intensity I had for a desire for transformation. This weekend will be a start back down that path. I di get a book tonight from Max Lucado, something about thirst. It looks pretty cool and has been on my wanted reading list for some time. It looks to be a quick read.

Tonight's class was cancelled which I guess was ok excapt I did not find out until I was there waiting. But really I did get out into some fresh air after the day warmed up and I did feel the pressure for time and I got a few things cleaned up around my aparatment. So good did come of it. But there is so much more to clean. It is not cleaning, I somewhere fell off the path and got sidelined with faith and everything. I was not on top of things and they got behind.

Some steward I am huh? I really need a disconnected evening away from everything where I can focus and concentrate on where I am and pray, really pray and connect with God, try to hear what he may be saying to me.

He may have been trying to tell me something here lately, but I have been deafened but not deaf. God has me here for a reason...and all I know is that i feel a deeper desire to know him better and draw closer to him, yet my sins are well let's call them a prodigal addiction. It makes sense. We all must have a prodigal sin.

I think that would make a perfect topic next.