You know the best thing I love about the almighty, his loving reminders that he has not forgotten about us. His way of letting us know he is already thinking of us and has his way of providing for us. Today was such a day. Well there were enough downs but it all wrapped up nicely in the end.

Right now sitting once again with no air conditioner and the night air flowing in from my fan hearing the crickets and feeling great. I love this time of year for that right there. Just nice and cool. Yet I am braggin almost when there is an area of this country in much worse case than I am.

This has hurt me watching what is going on down therre. I want to cry and I want to hurt those wronging others, raping, murdering, and shooting those that are helping. I want to cry out to God with my loudest voice!!!! I wished I could clal upon his thunder and strike them down. Alas I cannot. Yet my anger grows equal to my sadness for those down there.

The sad thing is, if this is a teaser trailer for the end of times....I am scared. Very frightened. This is man. This is who man is. Even in the darkest of times, sin still runs amok and battles against God's glory and grace and well God. I did not see anarchy like this. And now I really know what it is. 9/11 we were united...now something like this and we are scattered. Why? I know that my anger cannot match God's anger on this. If this all that man was back in the day of Noah....no wonder he decided to wipe us all out. This is here on our home soil. The sin of man knows no country or boundries other than himself....or herself whichever.

Right now I can only pray and hope that God's will is being done and there are people clinging and folowing God no matter what. I hope that his word is being spread and carried out. I hope that people find Christ during the ends of thier lives. This is a bad time, yet also a great time for God's children to work, and time for God to be found. This is the best of times, this is the worst of times.

Now my day was fairly depressed, well deep hearted sadness and anger for the region. ANd depressed that I may not be able to go home for my reunion. The only time of the year that I can get to see my family, I now may not be able to. And this saddens me. Feeling down anytime that I get to be alone during family times tongiht at group I saw I was not alone. I had one offer for a 20 to get me there. Things are tight enough that 20 would not do the trick. Things can be pulled off but it's gonna be a trick to do so.

ANd when I got home there was a pacakge for me from my dad's girlfriend it was some coffee for the coffee machine they bought me last time I was down there and a check for $40. Which was great. It is for some pictures I need to print off and mail to them. It will not take me that much, and will still give me a few bucks left over. ALso I was told of a job opportunity for part time that I could try for, and even a frined feeling out a few things for taking on a roomate possibly.

Even at that the apartment complex he lives in would be $100 less a month for me to live there. SO even if anything else that would be a good chunk of change right off bat. So there is an opportunity to save some money. The roomate thing would work if we can get three of us in on it, that would make it cheap, but if we get all three of us Christians, that can add a new level of accountability. I havelived with non-christian friends before and it seemed to be a friction between us. Not from the religion, well somewhat, but there was a wall around us and made things a wee bit more difficult. At least with christians we can be accountable and able to be form but loving, rahter than my way or else attitude. At least that is what I am hoping. But that would definatly help me get a few things in order and think of others more than myself.

So tonight God let me know there is a way if I choose wisdom, there are others that are thinking and praying for me, and that things may change, there islight coming at the end of the tunnel so to speak. (below...this is what it feels like)

MEMO
TO: Tom
FROM: GOD
Hey Tom just to let you know I have not forgotten about you. I am working on a few things for you about the concerns you have told me for some time now. Take heart knowing that things are working out but I need you to follow and have patience. You have taken some steps towards me, and even a few back, yet I wanted to take this time to tell you that your words have not gone unheard. Please keep them coming. I love hearing from you.

Sincerely,

GOD