Ok yesterday was full of detours and bad things all around. Today I am where I wanted to be yesterday. I still feel somewhat dissapointed but maybe today I can get some stuff done. SO that way I can get some sense of accomplishment. I feel pretty bad that yesterday went down so badly. Let's say that one freaking screw messed me up considerably, I did not go to chruch, I did do laundry, I did go to a cook-out, My computers almost did not work and that's where I left off yesterday.

Now while it was down I did think of how dependant I am on this computer. It has become mroe than a tool. But so much is done on it. Both good, bad, and just plain lazy stuff. Maybe it was an oemn to back down and seek other venues etc. But considering this is where my skills are for making money I cna't really seem to back away form it cold turkey like that. But ti does need some serious clean up.

But it did make me plenty angry and frustrated last night being down.

As far as things go spiritually, I have been out of it for the last two days. Just not completely there. I think I need to get with someone and try to focus in again. I hate how I can be so deep into everything, then get side tracked again and be back off...well I am not off but I am not giving as much as I was. And that bothers me.

I still need to sit down and go over a few things from relationships, women, Galations 5:16-66 (i think), and reflect upon some sermons I listend to this weekend. That and try dealing with maybe I am an angry man. Lotts built up frustrations and such.

Well as I try to do today all that I wanted yesterday, we shall see. I just hope that my budget works out so that I can go home this weekend, see family and chill out away form it all.