Ok before reading this post two movies need to be watched, well it can only add to the graphical content...Armegeddon and Apollo 13.

I was reading in the pnp (pen and paper) journal that I write in occasionaly just when I feel the need to physically write. And no typos there. See I can spell 99% of the time, typing is another story.

But the entry was in November, shortly after I started Sojourn and shortly after I moved into this apartment. I refered to life's new journey, well the events at the time, the Dark side of the moon. Looking back upon that, that's exactly what hapened. In Apollo 13 they rocketed around the moon, cold, dark, no power. Armegeddon they blasted at 13 g's for 11 minutes and made it around the moon. WHat they both saw is what I am seeing now. the Apollo 13 had to manually manuver the craft, they could not get an auto fixed spot of earth. It was there, the goal but it was moving close, to far, to right on target, to away again. I feel I am seeing that. Earth would be the man God is molding me into. The change, where I am going, point B.

Now Armegeddon had one huge friggin rock followed by many more rocks dark, sharp, jagged, and flying fast, having to dodge many of them. This would be sin, turmoil, dobts, life, everything keepiung me from that goal. ANd I have taken some hits and got thrown for a loop or two. sometimes it clears up but some more rocks come flying my way, some I see, others I don't. SO really here I am coming out on the other side of the moon. Many changes occuring and things are getting scary and mildly depressing with all the stress andpressures of two lives. Battling for my soul.

One side wins many battles but one is winning the war. In war it isnt winning all the battles. In fact you can win a minimal amount of battles before you win the war. Like the battle for a river...if you win that you cut off the enemies water supply. You may have lost a million battles but this one win, hurts the other side furhter.

This is where I am as sin, being a sinner it's going to happen, wins battle after battle. Yet with prayer, meditation, and help from others a river battle may be won while other battles are lost. It's the war record not battle record.

THings can really go either really great or really bad at this stage. I cannot get contempt and must continue looking towards God for resolve and guidance.

But seeing the goal a wee bit more clearly now, even through all the rocks, makes the fight even more worthy. The dark side of the moon has passed, now it's time to fly. Keep my heart on the goal and things will get there.