Yes you read the title correctly. I think I will break this down into several parts. As with my walk I do see all these words applying. As a double life, well past life all these words apply. SO for this being a faith based blog and dealing with such X-rated words, I may shock some folks. But I want this to stand out and bring to surface alot. I want this to be honest and real. No hiding.

Why? Because this touches my heart. This load is something that I feel is time for me to discuss. To sin, to many a master and away from one, to serving God, well ok I am raffling already.

To parallel this I will discuss the BDSM lifestyle and the Christian walk. Freedom vs bondage and slavery. Yes these are both two separate thoughts, but they are the same in many ways.

Have you ever had too many choices? Wow isn't that freedom great? No because now we are slave to the freedoms.

Have you ever wished for more freedom and sorrow filled you every day? Why it is also then when we are the most free. The decisions and choices have already been made for us so why not enjoy the ride?

Have you ever been taken with pride and wanted total control over everyone and everything? Have you ever wanted total domination? Yet you are dominated by that desire, you are owned and now owning.

Have you ever felt the need to inflict pain upon yourself? Do without to punish yourself? While the greatest sins and all small one were already paid for and punished? Yet we want to be punished?

Have you ever given up and given up all to someone? To a human weather it be out of love for them or just given up on yourself? Yet not giving up everything to God.

I hope this clears some of the shock up. I hope to focus in on this a lot more through the upcoming month or so.

We desire freedom while here on earth and yet are in bondage to the desire for freedom. When we give up that freedom we become in bondage to God's will and desires not our own.

So in conclusion BDSM is not just about sex. It is life.