Wow today was very eventful and really alot of thinking. Very much so. My community gropu leader whom I was supposed to meet with had a baby. Wow this was so cool to hear. I was so happy to hear that. I knew them shortly before they were pregnant so it felt I was with them through the whole thing. Saw the stages of it and now here he is. It's so very cool.

No good nap but many thoughts occured though. Work went well. ANd now I am here at the other job. Err I mean main job.

Really from what I have felt God speak to me, through events and readings, is that I need to focus on him and become more dependant on him more so than I am. It feels as if he is laying out this life before me filled with great things, many of which are/were unforseen, and many that are desires I have had for some time.

Yet before I can get this I need to give everything to him. And everything, not leaving only one or two things for me on the side as keep sakes. But everything. Then I can grow in a spiritual family, a church family, and even my own family one day. Actually I have become more dependant on him as I have prayed more for guidance and wisdom in the events that have been unfolding lately. But either my prayer life is great and reading isnt, or reading is great and prayer isn't. Its been one or the other. But I am feeling less and less alone.

Wow anyways time to get a jump on work. Tomorrow I have an eventful day to look ahead too.