OK well I got the storm but not during my nap time grrr that sucks. Right now there is a storm of thoughts running through my mind. So I am trying to find a good chrstian streamin radio station. I feel like screaming as I feel somewhat lost, but frustrated. Not at being lost, but just the inner turmoil going on back and forth.

I think there are a few rules that I need to sit down and get them on paper and start living by them. Not trying to be leagalistic but looking at certain triggers that get me doing certain things. Today I was so lazy beyond beleif. And for that I am frustrated. Sense of accomplishment is very low. I so do not want to be at work right now, I want to be home reading and praying. And I have to work.....grrrrr. I want to cry and scream.

So what is up? I don't know. Tomorrow will be a make up day for the lack of production today. I think its time I talk to someone again, too much has built up. I want to scream. A war cry scream.