Today while I was at the shelter I I had a feeling grow, a set of feeligns that has been gorwing but now is much louder...why don't I take this chance and minister to these men?

There is one guy who goes often to this I think it's a club but itsclub unsuitable for let's say a family. And inside I am like, that's not a good place for him to be going to. This is just one example where I want to do more than just be the internet guy. Maybe get closer and able to talk to them more and have maybe a bible study online or something.

Maybe even just listen to them, who knows I might learn something. They are people as well as I am one.

I do need to leanr alot about leading people to God or of things godly, I can only plant the seed, it is god who will provide the water and growth. I need to learn patience I really do. Sometimes it gets me, and gets me bad.

Sometimes whne I slow down and listen, my heart tells me things. I only want to serve and know I am living by gods will and not my own. I do not always know. Some days Im on fire and others Im in the clouds. Life right now is a renewed adventure. Things are really different for the first time that I can ever recall. It's not all peaches 'n fun but it works. Life is coming own to some serious tug-of-war for my old self or self really for the renwed self. Some stains do not want to remove, others stay for a long time, sometimes you have to bleach it two or three times.

Who am I? Doesn't matter, it's what or who God wansts me to be. Until I know who I am, for now I am, well only one peson is that so I am , yet am not!

I hope I don't mess thigns up too bad so that I can go home net weekend. That and I hope the hurricane does not mess things up either. WHo knows, but a good few days off with family might do me some real good this year.