Well over the last day or two I have been sorta out of it. Been frustrated, in pain, and in a funk. Realy unproductive, even after I got stuff done. So am I doing ok, yeah I am. No I am not. I am not ok yet I am ok.

I am in a funk, just feel off. Just really off track off, well everything. Off centered. I have had heartburn, my gout is flaring up again, gassy, frustrated, headaches, etc. I have physicallyu been out of it.

Now my friend Brandon is in it worse and he is keeping better spirits than I am and his step-father is going through kidney failure...i think. So it's hard on him right now so he really has been off. And yet my stuff is many bad choices. No contest, he needs prayers more than me. In fact I wished I could give him my prayers. I have and will be praying for him.

Even right now outside its pretty, my air is off for the first time all summer. And I can't enjoy it. I guess even though I am doing ok, I really am in internally and spiritually. Becasue I am not. I just feel disconnected from alot and in pain right now, physically that is.

Time to look at the frustrations and anger within.