Ok sitting here in my cold apartment hoping for the weather to warm up. Atleast the 5 o'clock baking that occurs as the sun gets far enough overhead it bakes my apartment....I hope.

Last night I think I came to another crossing in my path. I know that I am being called or something. To what I have no idea but I feel there is something stirring inside me. Friday it was pointed out that maybe God was breaking me so that he can form me into what he needs. Much like the story of the clay pot in Jeremiah 18. I am being broken and recreated.

But last ngiht during one fo the songs I could smile again, well I have been smiling alot ore it seems, was the fact that these changes are happpening to me and the next step is to praise and serve. I have served tidbits here and there but I don't feel that I have really served. Becasue its an always function to serve God. I know I still need work before I feel I can safetly get there.

Part of it is I do not know how I can serve really. I see so many serving or praise with a skill they have. And the skills I have really don't seem to come into play except when I go out alone or something. I can't play an instrument, I can build computers, design webpages, take good pictures, but that doesn't seem.......blah there I go thinking inwardly. I know that God will give me what I need when I need it.

So if he is calling, I will get there. I don't think worrying about it will help much.