Ok it seem there are several articles on relevant.com that seem to hit home and this last one oh so very close.

http://www.relevantmagazine.com/article.php?sid=5411

I share this same struggle as this guy in the article. Except I don't have a family as he does. Otherwise this is the same I go through life wanting. And wanting for good but now knowing if it is God's will except for all the doors that do no open for me. I cant beleive this one hit so close to home. I could almost swear he was talking about me.

Here are some excerpts:
I feel like I’m missing my destiny. Am I just floating through, not chasing after what God has for me in this life, but instead, just doing what I have to do to just make it? Have I turned into what I always feared? I don’t want to just be someone who fumbled through life and “made it.”

God, give me the strength to follow Your voice where You lead, yet give me the wisdom to know it’s You. I do feel some sort of pressure inside that there must be more.

All these questions leave me wanting, awake at 1:34 a.m. on a Tuesday morning. Does this drive me to Your throne, God? Does this force me to come to Your feet, wait on Your voice and listen to what You have to say?...


Then there is the article on Lories Blog...
http://lorieking.blogspot.com/2005/04/i-cant-get-no-satisfaction.html

Kinda feel something stirring inside but I am not sure what. But knowing that it is there. Almost wonder what god is up to in my life? Ya know that feeling someone is up to something but ya can't tell what? That's about how I am feeling.