...Well After reading the passes associated with the devotional and current events at work, I am now really starting to feel the brunt of that message. The dream I am really starting to feel was so much more than a normal dream.

I think It was 2 Kings 20:1,
In those days Hezekiah became ill and was at the point of death. The prophet Isaiah son of Amoz went to him and said, "This is what the LORD says: Put your house in order, because you are going to die; you will not recover." (NIV)

Now I am not thinking it is that literal, but the way of my life, my sins may kill me. I may be on a path of destruction and may not know it or I am blinded that much that I cannot see it. What sins?

Well getting my affairs in order, new job, order amongst chaos, finaces are the big ones. Ya know start becoming more accounible even to myself, trying to be more organized, seeking new job where I can find ways to serve and minister, getting my finances together, but also my health. I have overlooked my health.

Now even if this dream was nothing it's stil a good message. We were never promised a tomorrow and putting off things till the next day, well I will have to work on that for years I am sure. But even at health....I got into work yesterday and found that one guy died. He was still young in his early 50's. I am seeing many go in thier early to mid 50's these days....im scared now. I think its time to try some different things in life to make it past the 50 mark. Now this guy was in decent health. In fact I saw him last week. Was talking to him. He was one of the people I looked forward to seeing with his smile and personality. He is dead now. And from the looks of it his health was much better of than mine, well weight wise.

So I get thins dream, leads me to a devotional, read teh passage, and then find news of this man's death...It's scary when I think of it. But neglecting my body is frightening. It may be creeping up on me. So now mayhaps I should look into this furhter. This is the hard part as every time I have tried to get in shape I fall every time. I just cant do this alone.

Now a new job prospect can help. If I am to get this job I will be on my feet so much more and that will help greatly. The interview went well today, very well actually. So we shall see what comes of it. It will help in more ways than one.

Tomorrow will be the first I have had 2 days off in a row and off after Sojourn. I love this. So maybe I can keep a great mindset after sermon and take it home with me. It is also time to confront my sins. And that also scares the hell out of me, not literally, but figuratively. Scares me to hell would be more like it.