I guess after some of my prayer I have been able to sort a few things out. I went down the list in order of occurance for the day.

1.) Am I sending off signals? Am I coming off as a pervert, angry, foolish, prideful, naive, a know it all who knows nothing, whiney, deprepssed? I feel that I may be sending off some signals that I don't know about. If I am I have prayed that I can see them.

2.) My desires are hard to let go of. My desire to have a companion, girlfriend, wife may be so strong that it is clouding my judegement. That I may be focusing my heart on wanting one so much that I am not focused on God as I could be.

3.) Is it presumptous or sinful to pray and ask for someone to find Christ into thier lives when I know so little about thier life? What if they are a christian or have beliefs already. Is it wrong for me to assume they do not? Or pray that they do?

4.) well thats something that can stay inside the group. But part of it does tie into something else.

5.) And trying to find a way to mindfully pray for my enemies or those I have difficulties with in life and faith.

These were the major ones on my list tonihgt. Now back to my cold apartment, until the temp outside rises again, more blankets to be used.