Well it seems I was sending off a different voice that was well received yesterday. And a direction given. I can get all nice dramatic and mystical but I won't. I read Romans 7 and 8, well most of 7. I may need to re-read it as it made more sense this time.

Yesterday's topics really did come back to the anonymous comment left in a previous post. That and the phoneix story, well poetry I guess you could call it, well now know that it's wrong. Looking at it in a different light it's where I know that I will never completely get rid of sin.

It did hit me not to long back about Jesus and his death. He had no sins but still died. I have heard over and over "yadda yadda yadda he died for our sins yadda yadda yadda" but never really saw it in perspective. I typically only hear that. Now asking myself how did he die if he was without sin. That God has said that we shall die form our sins yet Jesus had none? That's when he took out sins. And when I look at is as an order (this before thatn then that...rather than a command) it does seem to hit me.

I guess I am still applying that into my faith/life. To be able to understand that more. Knowing him better may be the key to some of the issues I am going through.

Now all is good that things got a new direction and seemed to work in a circle...the good kind not the redundant type. Now I have another book to read which is cool. This one deals with maturing in out faith. Which sounds most like what I need. That and I got an extra copy of the book for Trent and now we can go over a chapter or two when we do our weekly accountability meetings. And then when that's over I can meet again with Daniel and see where I am from there.

From what I am seeing I find is wrong. And God loves to be humbling. As every time I think I have something figured out or am on the start of the road, making progress, or starting to understand he loves to shoe me that I am not. He has been showing me from another angle or through someone else's eyes.

This is one of the things I love about him. I jut wished he would let me take Jesus bowling one night. Just bowling in a smoke free bowling alley, downing a few beers or wine whatever his conscious permits. And chilling out bowling a few and talking things out. Not looking for the answers in life but to ask a few things and come to a few understandings. That would be cool. I know he will make perfect strikes each time and I will have my normal "I broke 100" celebrations when I do.

So from where I am now is trying to look at a few things I have heard and seen before from different angles. Also based upon this re-occurring anonymous comment that seems to keep surfacing and the illustration Daniel gave me yesterday (which seems to fit perfectly now that I reflect upon it) to understand exactly how great my sins are and knowing and understanding god and his glory to see where the cross does lye.