There was a post I started before Monday' news. I have it in a draft, and its long. May get longer here soon. In a nutshell where I am now is there are moments of need or moments of Sin whereas we, especially I, do not turn towards God at that time. Not if we don;t think of it, but yet when the thoguht comes into our minds that we should see God or pray or think out or anything that points to God at the time...and we ignore that, isnt that a greater sin than sinning itself?

I know that my issues are not the worst in the world. In fact I have a firend right now, gave birth to twins this week and died a few hours later. Here he is now a single father, lost his suitible helper and dealing with death and two births in one day. That is some stuff stuff.

And here I am sitting along complaining or worrying about my stuff, yet I can;t fathom how he has been able to wake up everyday to face the new world he has been thrust into. God is working in his life with many friends and family that have not left his side.

Maybe I should put things into persepctive. No matter how bad thigns are God is there, the universe is at work. On a normal and good day the same thing.

And seeking or turning to God everyday, may sound like a bit much, but after two or three days, I start to feel a difference in my thoughts and actions in everyday things. Not just sinning, but every little thing too. My thoguhts and desires and actions.

Wel these are my thoguths for now...who knows what the day will bring.