I woke up this morning, or afternoon, as usual from working night shift, tired, frustrated and just lazy not wanting to do anything. I did manage to budget out a few thigns for the next three weeks, and then get a bill paid. I was tired n grupmy starting off the day.

Then picked up some of my fav lunch and took it home. I got into my recliner, popped in one of my fav tv shows and just started eating lunch. I had just created my zone and was ready to chill Then I got a phone call that changed it all.

I found that a mutual friend that I played D and D with a few times, his wife was pregnant with twins. Long story short, she died and the twins survived.

This is just too surreal, still hard to beleive right now. So tongiht in group we will have some serious prayer time. But my tone has changed. From grumpy on the start, to now my heart going out to another family.

in fact two guys in my group have connections to this friend. So this effects three men in my group. I still can't beleive it. He had his wife yesterday and now she is gone, no warning or exit just gone.

I do not know the family well enough right now to do much for them, but I know there are many folks there for them right now. The lives this effects is happening on a crazy week.

But I know that I can pray for them at least. It is times like this it is hard to understand god and his sovreignty. I think he was a christian, so this is just....

I dunno. life happens yes. But that still does not make things any easier.

Still hard to believe right now. Just a wee tad too much surreal right now...I think that's the word I wana use.