Tonight's reading was a good one. Much to ponderover indeed.

Great crowds were following Jesus. He turned around and said to them, "If you want to be my follower you must love me more than your own father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters--yes, more than your own life. Otherwise, you cannot be my disciple. (Luke 11:25-26, NLT)

It is the times such as thig that i look and wander how corrupt we have become and how to ever stop it from happening again. We put so much into not being alone that we look so much more down here for that fulfillment. Yet we miss the point and this verse.

Exactly how much do I love Christ's life and sacrifice? How much do I love God's grace? How much do I allow myself to love? Even greater than I? How often do I seek this love? Not only loving him, yet more than those whom I love and hold dear here and now? Including myself.

This is some convicting stuff this is for sure.

I know that before I get serious or ask a woman as my wife, I cannot take her as a bride unless she can love only one other greater than me, and better love greater than me, and that is love God before me and above me as I do the same.

As far as accountability or discipleship goes...tomorrow loooks to be a great day. Thursday is now free as there is no group. But TOmorrow I am meeting with Trent to talk over a few things. Kinda do a spiritual report card to see where I am.

As far as my sins of late, well sin in general...sin may possibly be redefined as taking pleasure in sources outside of God whereas disobeying denying him in out lives as provider and master. Where we decide at what point to take things into our own hands for salvation, peace, and comfort.