For some time now I have been pondering much upon my heart. Tonight was nearly an overload at church. Scripture hit me twice and then the pastor hit me once...so to speak. It was a great blessing for the spirit to move through him and touch me.

Last week was hard for me. I will be honest I was very well back in the wrold with many of my sins and behaviors. Thursday and friday were the worst. In fact I was even upset at church and was contemplating not going for two weeks. I was very upset and used that as the basis for my anger.

Friday I did my weekly meeting to discuss anaother lesson in the "How People Change" class. I felt a wee tad better. But I was still upset in so many ways. But Before I took a nap I read the next chapter in the book. By the end of it my attitude changed. It was very different. I was no angry any longer. In fact I already have the lesson done and have revisted it.

Today in sermons I was pondering at how much the gospel has changed me over time and even these last few months. And it is comforting. My sins do sadden me. But repcing hope in myself ewith hope in Christ, I have nohting to bast about. As left up to me things would be very different.

I will miss the class during the break, it is only just now getting great.

I think maybe I really ought to write a book. I think it does have a great basis how one born to be a preachers son and fell before he was old enough to know God, now jounries back to where he was meant to be in the first place. Without the background or theology. A simple common man.

I amnot sure but it is something that I have been pondering over these last week or two during my blog silence. Much like psalms 88 the book will not end with the answers or on a happlily ever after note. It will end with a work in progress. Maybe Iwill share my notes form the lesson here soon.

I do have alot to share, but folks are so busy lately, few stop by here to check out thigns, and in reality folks are busy with school and holiday end of year stuff.