And what oh what shall today bring? I am still searching for answers in dealing with my hatred for my yo-yo job. They are slowly coming and is getting difficult in accepting.

It looks like bad weather today. Stormy outside but feels good windwise tome anyways. But this time of year for the warmness it can cause a thunderstorm and or tornado. Oh well.

Still waiting for internet at the new place. So far it is working out nicely. But I still need a major break form work. I am tired and need some friday off.

An yet more crazy news with my sleep apnea...they still were not abel to get the best results from the test. I can't afford this. I now have to ahave a machine before teh machine pretty much. An I am running out of insurance so there is about to be alot of out of pocket expenses....great more stress on stress.

Anyways I guess this is pushing me to a breaking point of dependance on who I dunno. But this is starting to kill me. At least I am sleeping a wee bit better but I still stop breathing at night.

Who knows when I will ever get straightened out and becoem the man God is calling me to be? It just seems furhter away every day. WIll there ever be light at the end of the tunnel.