TOday I just want to be lazy and dream, daydream, just be somewhere else but here bored, lazy, and unfulfilled. It is hard to even start reading. I just cannot seem to get motivated for anything. Even though tonight looks to be a great night at work since I do not have to run the posts section!!! Tranlsation I get out of work much earlier. I love that. I will help extra tonight just for not having to run sports.

But last night was a great start when I went to the class at sojourn. It really hit home as we breifly hit up the topics of work ethics sorta. Its about changing.

I wished there were more better Christian songs out there. On the radio the most part its like all pop and too much like a love song on prom night these days. I just wished I could findsomething to connect with that does not seem to make me feel more isolated.

Monday and Tuesday will be some hard up days. Monday I go to sleep Dr for sleep apnea tests, and then Tuesday I will attend an accountability group. Just to feel things out and see if this is something I wish to continue in furhter detail.

Even right now I cant seem to focus or concentrate.