OK this has been too eventful of a week. And has drawn me away from god...at least by means of I have not been drawing to him as I should have been. But oh what a long week it was. Now I better start playing mr nice adult and do things right including drawing to God more often than before.. But even to reflect upon this week...I get word my car needs too much work done to it before it literally falls apart. I get financed for another car, I get a newer car (2000 sunfire), I get a very good deal on some lights and dark room equipment, and now I am broke as wizz. But I do have three books I ordered last week so mayhaps this will be a great week for reading.

SPeaking of I have not been reading the bible or any of the books, nor praying heartedly if at all lately either. I just havnt been. I have had some prayers but not the intimate ones I long and strive for.

I may have made some unwise choices this weekend. I will soon do some math to find out how bad. SO there will be many things to deal with soon.

Now whats on my mind is trying to get side jobs with portraits since I have the strobes now. But now that I have a dependable car try delivering pizza a few nights a week. But here is where I really must concentrate and pray on:

Finding and keeping a second job that still leaves room for my spiritual time.

RE-budget and stick to it

Learn to say no to myself

EVERY day have devotional and reading of the word

The serentity prayer:
Lord grant me wisdom to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.

I need a different level of accountability and I think I see it coming. Reading more about the war over Lust....who doesnt fight it these days. Just got a book or two to see things from a different angle. Then I am trying to clean up finances and get thigns taken care of soon....bottom line I should take this to God and concentrate on this. Take oit back to the place I didn't go to this week as much as I should have.