I am not sure what is going on in my mind. Its just general traffic of all sorts of thoguths. And I am just letting them all run its course. I did not go to Sojourn tongiht. I just wanted a night to chill and productive...well I was somewhat productive but not to the extent I wanted to or needed to.

I have realized that the cleaniness and organization of ones life can effect ones mood and spirituality. If its somewhat chaotic and a mess (well cluttered) it can reflect that in ones day to day operations.

Then on the spiritual maturity and life in general the word that keeps coming up is steward. And I do not feel I am being a good one at all. I am making progress yes but still take an occasional side step or back step or two every now and then.

It is such a huge work in progress that I can only take it one step at a time and allow progress to happen as it does. But nor do I wish to boast about it either. It's a hunger that grows so it can never get fed completely.

I do not know yet I know.

The conundrum has started again....blah. Time to listen some more. My thoughts obviously were not done speaking.

I do have another three books on its way to me this week. Two on purity and one on twenty something life. The choices I make now will effect the rest of my life. More so then before. But from here out yes this will change.