Well 5 days off are nearly over. I miss them already. Was a fun event filled few days. Played Volley ball like mad sunday and now feel the day after pains. Feels so good.

Now I am wanting something to draw closer to in Christ. And topday i ran across a passage I wouild like to sit and meditate upon tonight.

so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. - Ephesians 3:17-19 (NIV)

This really is a deep passage. I looked this up in several other verisons but this one spoke to me the best.

Had a good talk today about the whole mother situation. Good to know there are others sharing the same pain as I am. So there is support to go to when I need it. And even bounce off of. I see a few things I need to work on inwards, I still fall short of his glory and need to work on that. I can't blame no one but myself for the choices I make. I need to accept that more and more and realize I am so veryu dependant on him. And instead of taking things into my own hands or controlling things myself, I should let God take care of it for me.

But its faith and love listed in the verse above that I might need to reflect upon.