Ok well today was an eventful day. I did manage to get some sleep at some point and now at work. I just hope I can get out of here early and catch up on what I had planned yesterday. Today, well I can't even find words for it. I am still sorting it all out.

I talked to my dad for a while tonight and filled him in on the details. I have been in the process of sleep deprivation all day. But I'm ok now. Still hard to belive she called. I am not wanting to get hurt again so I shall still remain as neutral as I can. No feeling allowed. Just keep enough distance and let what ever happens, happen.

I know my mom wants to be a apart of my life but this time she will have to earn it, and I mean earn it for earning it. Now there is only one more person to make amends with.

I know for years I wanted to tell my mother how I felt and return a small smidgen of pain and suffering I had from her. But today that was not the case. It went well, but I can't say how it went. I just did not let it get to me. Where to go to from here...well one step at a time. And for now I need to listen to what God is telling me.

Time heals wounds, and so does God.