Yesterday was a blast. It was nice and long yes but wel worth it. I did get my yearly sunburn. And I didnt even feel it was that hot. Now the sad part is I bought sun block and did not use it!!!!!!!!

Well yesterday I woke up nice n early and then went to the tennessee rennassaince festival.IT was a blast. I git lots of pictures. I am so pleased. As with the manual focus lens I have I am getting bettet with it. Sure thee are still shots I mess up but there are gettng to be many more that are GOOD shots.

After the ren fest I got to go eat dinner with my dad and his gf. I have not had a sit down dinner like that in a very long time. That was great. a nice blesing to add to the day's value. It was a weird eccelectic kind of meal as nothing really went together, but it was all good though. And as always my dad gave me some extra stuff he had. So now I have a dining room table yeah!!! it's ben years.....well its more a bar table than anything. But it's a place to sit down n eat now. The cycle is complete...well now I need a washer n dryer again and I will be complete furniture wise!!

ANd yesterdayu I got plenty of good talking in with the accountability, since we had 3 1/2 hours trip each way. ANd I think I came to a few conclusions. Once again God really came through. ANd I really now do feel that he wants me to close the books on a few chapters and get things cleaned up. Maybe then after that I can truley move onward. There are 4 people I needed to make peace with. Well now that is three as I was able to talk to my brother. My dad I just need to sit down and get some info on my history, my mohter, and then one other person. Now I was shocked to know that I may have been so very close to her yesterday. After all these years of not knowing There she is. But I could not find her. But This is God's test. I can, or at least have a way, to ask and find out if it is who I think it is. But that is the scary part of it. And I do not feel as scared about it as I did yesterday upon finding out.

So even though I do not have definite answers on the location of her or my mother, I have a direction to check out and God willing it will happen. SO that I have this will I take this chance or will I scare my self away?

This is great, even though this is some scary stuff filled with many emotions...when God works this way, I do want to do it more. Good days, yes! Scary days too even. Kick through the walls and tear them down. And I did find the missing start on my book.....so no more starting over whew!!


And I am sunburned....its a battle scar hah!