Now time to reflect all the differnt things I have heard this week. One point made was it's not what would jeasus do it's what would jesus HAVE ME do? Which I can see that point.

As looking at the bible we know what he would do. But do we do that? Well thats the case in point right there. But rather maybe we could look at what would he have us, or myself do? This is a very good point and I am not sure how to answer. Becasue after I got feedback from Lorie, a new point has been brought up that leaves me into pondering.

Which is getting to know him more than we do. Thinking about it, I do spend (as well as so many others) alot of time trying to figure out what we can, or would, should, could do that we tend to froget about knowing him. Instead of knowing how I should resolve issues or resolve them....why not get to know the lord and his heart...what is really behind it.

And when we start understanding God and wanting to become more Christlike then things start to change. We are commanded to love one another as we would ourselves, but if we only love ourselves to think about ourselves all the time then how can we love others? Many thoughts are coming to me on this so its hard to sort them out. But what I do get out of it is maybe stop being as self focused as I am and become more focused on christ.

I guess this is where I would need to lear to submit...to simply accept his will and let it be? But i still want to hold on to a life I feel God wants me to have no matter if it is his will for me to have it. That's how I feel about it sometimes. I guess that is letting go of my current masterof myself.

Once again I bring myself upon a dream, well a fantasy of bowling with christ. Just me and him bowling an all nighter. Just chillin out and bowling. This way if I get angered at anything he says to me I iwllhave a heavy ball to throw and take it out in a positive manner. He will be here next me so I know he is with me. And talk very brisk, honest, and to the point. That would be nice. going bowling with Jesus.

But back in reality the closer I get to him the more I see him in the mirror. THe more I feel him in others. The more I see him in others.

Before I ramble on too much furhter I shall ponder on the feedback. Looking away from myself and getting to know and love the one I want to serve.