Tom Branch - Roads of Faith

I was reading the other day a real nice verse that went along with somehting I was trying to get across and now i cant find it anywhere. I looked for several minutes and still did not find it. But I know it in there somewhere. I found it in my devotional, it told a story and then gave a verse to back it up. I hope to find it soon, becasue it irks me.

But now looking at where I am today, to where I am going this I need to sit down and inventory. There is alot that I want to do and a lot I need to fix first. So I guess Ill take the first steps now and give a gerneal glance of where I am. Back when I was in high school I dreamed of becoming a chef, moving to louisville, going to SUllivan and then graduation, get a good job, settle down, find a woman, marry, children, happily ever after.

Fast forward a few years. No graduations, no nice paying job, single as ever, no kids, and well happily lasts in short bursts.

Well the job factor, well I have one but I cannot seem to balance things financially well as I would like to. I really need to learn to be better with my money and save more. I need to learn self denial more often (aka discipline) in order to make that happen more often. Pay bills and get out of debt. I just grow tired of having this bad credit cloud hanging over me. And not just for me. If I am ever to have a family, I need to be good or balance with the finances.

For family. First I know I need a woman but that is now a new battle. FIrst I need to control my lusts more often. I have come along ways but I am tried of lust controlling me. it is very hard to say no to it. I am making progress bur it feels good to look at a woman and not lust after her. And from my last relationship I hope to not let it win as sex became all the relationship was about. And I hope to get away from that. I want to repsect my wife and love her to.

Then I must learn to love and be more self-less. I must care for others and learn to love and patience if I am to start a family one day.

Actually while im reading this devotional and learning from sojourn every week....its time to take responsability....and I mean seriously. On a new level I have never thought. As for the bible, the way I understand, the men are to be responsible for himself, his wife, his children...and here I am thining of myself so much. Now I must fix my issues in order to take care of a woman and a child and have a family all the while taking them and myself home to God.

I guess I really do have a lot to look at as all this time I thought I could handle a relationship etc.....but I am far from it and now I am seeing that. I may not be one of these people that have lovers all the time. But I may be one to have a strong family that is worth it all in the end. It's more than having a companion...its family and that is something stronger, so much stronger. As my childhood family was broekn, I hope to have a strong one one day.

So from this day I pray I start with my and grow outward. I must do better for christ, for me, and my family.

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1 Comments:

Lorie said...: Now I must fix my issues in order to take care of a woman and a child and have a family all the while taking them and myself home to God.

What I'm learning is that my obsession with trying to fix or figure out my "issues" and how I can "be" better is still an obsession with SELF. When I take my eyes and mind and energy off ME and make knowing who Christ is my obsession, my heart and life will change. That's the promise of Scripture.

It's easy to get caught up in thinking that I have some control over making myself a better, more God-pleasing person. That's just not the truth of God's Word. I can be obedient, but if I don't know the One I serve and his heart, I don't know how to hear his voice or please him and just end up doing what makes sense to me.

Tom, I pray that God will give us new perspectives and that we will turn our minds away from self and towards Christ. Think of how much time we waste thinking about ourselves or things related to us and how LITTLE time we spend thinking about the one who makes us who we want to be?!; Tuesday, March 22, 2005 10:55:00 AM

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