I think I may write another series of collected stories. Related to work and suffering this time. Maybe later though, not now.

It seems that the sermon last week has been such a great blessing for me as I have been different since. It was not just the sermon, but also the related scripture read throughout the service. But I did, no God showed me that in a physical sense, I have no power. In a way such as he did with Job. Since then many of my sins have been a battle. Especially with anger.

I am not out of the woods at work just yet. However a crossroad may be here soon. But still I get frustrated and angry when thinking of the situation. It is a war against my pride and it is hard to let go of. Even in defense it is hard to let go of.

In other sins in my life it's just as much of a battle and I sense it in the middle of it and stop. Something has changed and is changing me. I even now see repentance different. I cannot repent of my own. Only he can bring repentance.

Next week I get to start accountability for more spiritual matters so that in addition to the other accountability, this could be good. This may help us remain focus. As I know that when I am getting angry and such that my focus is not on God. When it's not there for God, it's not there for others, my heart that is.

So something is stirring and I know it is not me. It is not within my power so I can only give credit to him for this change. I have had several other brothers step up and support and encourage me this last two weeks. And I really want to bring them in on these things.

And share with others the glory and great things that I am learning along this way. I hope that I do not overwhelm anyone with doing so.