I hate saying good bye to friends and those I care about. Who knows what tomorrow will bring, but tonight may be the last time I get to see Aaron, at least for a while. I am saddened yes, but still happy for him. This is where his heart is. And starting a family is important to him. I hate to see him go but it is his time. I don't think it will be the last I see of him. But I feel this is where God wants him. If anythnig (as life as a sitcom) he gets to have a season or two up north for a bit.

Now yes I have one less dear friend in this town. He is the one that got me back into church. So I can now be there for him in prayer and spirit. His time has come to move on.

This week is far from over and I am worn out already. Mostly mentaly. Physically I will be fine. But worn out from saying good by to a friend, deep thoughts and ponderings with my time with Christ (or lack thereof), finances, and just everything...I am worn out. Tomorrow is work and a concert, the thursday is work and community group, friday is well a payday that will go by very fast. A very tight week is coming up.

But looking at it when I kept the budget simple it seems to work out better, when I get gun-ho about it, I get broke in a bad way and so short leaving no room for life Iget furhter in the hole....I am starting to like the simple plans better.

Today, this morning, or last night I think It was I went over some more parts of psalms 119. It did me some good. But I feel I need to meditate upon them further. is now a time for doing or is now a time for listening?

Dont be sad, do not cry, for knowing things are in god's hands should let us smile and comfort our hearts.