Ok thngs were sorta dry there for a breif while. I was seeking God but not pursuing God. Or vice versa...soemthign like that. I would seek a good book or scriptures but not God in the matters.

I was slowly coming around...or so I thought. But It seems that there was a huge pop quiz that threw it all off. To keep matters short I would say it was a serious roommate issue. And I have not got that angry in a long time. I was shaking I was so mad. I had to leave work as I could no longer focus in at work. I was enraged I guess you could say.

Now this is where the difference comes in. I knew that I cold not de-escalate my self, so I made some phone calls. And there was genuine concern. I was able to meet with someone last ngiht and talk about it and gaiend some great perspective on the matter.

It put the focus back on God. The focus I had lacked over the last week or so. Before I met with the friend I went to a bookstore and the smell was soothing. Went to the Christian book section, which was nothing but the mainstrem books and noe of the good ones, and flipped through a few of them. It hit me that this could very well be a test to draw me to God, and a test of Grace.

Then later I see that in my anger however much is actually righteous or called for (I know I am not all innocent yet I am not the only one wrong) that this sia test of self denial. As the Godlike response and mine were not on the same page if even in the same library.

So this is now also a test of self denial. There are surface issues and there are heart issues. I was so upset at the surface that I did not see the heart issues.

But even last ngiht I was given an opportunity to help another in need. It felt great to forget my issues and help another. In fact for that while they all went away. Then after that I had a followup conversation with another friend and that was encouraging too.

It may be time to seek new romates, but not time to end another friendship...at least this time I can't let the friendship go as it is a brother in christ and we are called to forgive.

POP QUIZ
Show Examples, in great detail, in your life:

1.) Grace

2.) Self Denial

3.) Drawing to God

Turn in at the end of class

(note: this is a visual example, not a request for readers)