Some changes you have to fight for. Some changed I am fighting for but it is a fight. In fact I may start figting for my photography. I miss it alot. But then I have not made it as much as an idol as I once did. But it is still an outlet that lets me be free and cpature life. Even thgouth it is still temporary. Oh well.

I am thihnking about making another blog, but this time it not be public and open to only whom I give the address. It's a thought. I have been living up to higher standards, well more like expectations rather than living with less.

Change happened and now the resistance is warring within me. But I feel good when it's over as I know I have one, well it was not I who won yet it was the will and power of God that did this. And I can see this inside of me, I can feel it. I now that the man I am becmong is becoming more prominate. Yet people will only see what they wish to. That's fine. Inside I know change is occuring. But there is still much more that is needing and going to be happening.

I have been working on the directory for Sojourn all weekend. Yet my regular job has taken alot out of me so it looks like I will not be as near done as I had hoped to be but things will happen according to God's will. Monday I can get a fresh start on this and start making some contacts with a few folks and see what this will take to get this published by next week.

So not only am I being more ressponsibile but I have been given more, and accepted, more responsabilities. This to produces change and prayers for wisdom. But then there is also accountability groups that have me getting there too. In fact here soon the new semester I may take on a new accountability partner if the one that is there now does not free up some time. He seems to busy to be personal.

I have to draw a line and this plague of business by so many folks around I am about to start calling people out for getting themselves in this position of being too busy. I dunno it could be me getting frustrated, but then again I don't think that is all of it. Maybe I should pray on this some more a bit first.

I wished I could find a verse in the bible about being too busy, I need that verse. I dunno. I'll leave it to prayer.

I am still waiting for next week for an answer tomy prayers. A new dealine at work may allow me to get done sooner and therefore salvaging some of my sleep on the weekends. It may not be a new job, but it can really make so much a difference. I hope this will go down like this.

Well time for work.