12-14-2005

Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Tensions mounting at work. I have doen well to not give in and buying a lot of stuff. I did go ahead and pay for New Attitude conference comping up in May. NewAttitude.Org so that looks to be cool.

I do not know how to honor God in my current job situation. No one seems to be able to answer this one for me nor able to walk with me through this. And my hatred and contempt only grows. If I am the church goer it makes everything I do reflect even more poorly upon being a christian. Then I do not think I am taken seriously enough at work. As long as I show up and am perfect and make no mistakes, give no input and give everything the highest priority then I am fine.....at least they are fine with me then.

I was about to really get to some serious stuff with my community group as I still feel a lack of community, well outside the fun filled two hours each week. I feel I have none.

I think next week I am going to visit friends and family in Nashville for a day. The only day off I have, well one of two until christmas. I need the break. These next few weeks are going to be hell with work and then everyone I know being done with school are outta here for thier own families etc. So things are about to get lonley yet again at this time of year.

But the day after christmas I am so gonna have fun. No work for a week. Ahhhh

I have done more prayer even for others which is a cool thing. But I still ponder over what are god's plan for me? I just bought three cd's from Itunes, both of the Narnia cd's one with chrstian music and the other intrumental, and then Songs fro the Cross centered life, it was a cd given props from C.J Mahney's book the cross centered life.....speaking of Mahaney he and Joshua Harris and others will be at New Attitude conf here in May. More thoughts to come......

I hope to blare my ipod with plenty of new inspirational songs that help me work, drown out work's distraction and ungodliness, and hope that it does keep me reminded of his presence all day.

1 Comments:

Blogger Heather Gemmen Wilson said...

I love the honesty in your writing. I wish more of us would struggle with faith rather than letting it fade. Anyway: Persevere. That's what Paul advises and I think he knows what he's talking about.

Friday, December 16, 2005 9:29:00 PM  

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    Thy way, not mine, O lord


    Thy way, not mine, O Lord,
    However dark it be;
    Lead me by Thine own hand,
    Choose out the path for me.

    Smooth let it be or rough,
    It will be still the best;
    Winding or straight, it leads
    Right onward to Thy rest.

    I dare not choose my lot;
    I would not, if I might;
    Choose Thou for me, my God,
    So I shall walk aright.

    Take Thou my cup, and it
    With joy or sorrow fill,
    As best to Thee may seem;
    Choose Thou my good and ill.

    Choose Thou for me my friends,
    My sickness or my health;
    Choose Thou my cares for me
    My poverty or wealth.

    The kingdom that I seek
    Is Thine: so let the way
    That leads to it be Thine,
    Else I must surely stray.

    Not mine, not mine the choice
    In things or great or small;
    Be Thou my Guide, my Strength
    My Wisdom, and my All.

    ~Horatius Bonar