Being in a constant battle for sexual purity, well that word purity is not even the 1/16th of it. When on a path towards godliness it engulfs everything in ones life, not just one aspect.

For a record I do agree with the Pope, which does not happen often where the Christmas season is ravaged by consumerism. Amen. Someone listen to him. He may be right on this point. Create and give gifts from the heart not go out and shop shop shop.....anyways. Even giving gifts from the heart can take away the celebration and focus that Christ was born. Yes giving gifts to ones you love is great, yet it just occurred to me that the wise men gave gifts to a child they did not know.

How may widows, orphans, homeless are out there that receive no gifts? How many know not the world and love of Christ? How many people do we know that refuse the love of Christ? This is something to think about over the holidays.

But back to the purity aspect...it seems now that I have regained a level of sensitivity to things I see sex every where. And the age limit of sexual display is getting lowered. Now teens are even dressing and partaking into fashion. The other night at the movies I was like why are these girls wearing clothes this tight? They seemed to want to look good and made it a point so that is vanity, then of course lust by the way they dressed. I wished I had authority to tell them to go home and put on some looser fitting pants. Or something to cover up their cleavage.

Yes this is the season of consumerism, yet sex sales so guess what, two plus two equals sex'mas the season of consumerism!!! Guys but for their girlfriends to have sex, girls will get things that make them more attractive so their boyfriends will have sex with them. I am thankful for the women at Sojourn. I have been able to see that it is not always like this.

Why is it this way? I know not all are like this but it's all over the place. Before I started my own battles with purity.....before the lord made it obvious I needed to work on this and set forth my path others to join me in the fight.....I see that I was desensitized (sp??) to the sex everywhere. But my levels have increased and I see it everywhere. It seems to get harder to find a modest girl in both clothing and lifestyle. So much time is spent on sex and living in fantasies that we waste so much of our lives.

What is up with the world today? Women dress up poorly, men react (what seems only to) the women who dress poorly therefore keeping the cycle going. It is getting anger some, I want to scream at every girl looking like an advertisement for sex, and scream even louder at every boy (men can be boys too) that are out like the hound dogs on a hunt.

I know of a friend that is obsessed with sex as much as I once was. Being on the other side of the fence, seeing how much time and life is wasted...I know right now all I can do is pray for him.

From what I have learned is sex is not a one word sin called lust. It's a packaged deal, with vanity, greed as you want it more, pride...yes all these are rooted in pride. We are a prideful society. The root of our problems is pride. We want for ourselves. Very opposite from the first beatitude of being broke in spirit offering God nothing as we have nothing to offer him.

This is only one area that God has blessed me with to fight. This is only one of several areas he has given me to battle. Finances, support, so much more. But we, I must learn to rely on his strength more and turn from my own power. As my own power I do not want to give up my ways. It is been such an integral part of life why would or should I give it up? Because it is Christ that will lead me from here and my ways should not be listened to.

One day I pray that with all God has been doing and commanding of me that I will live as a child of light as told in Ephesians.