Well just as I feared sunday was another bad sunday. A day of recharge was not. I hate telling anyone I hate my job for they seem to offer nothing in return and I get the vibes of there goes Tom complaining again, fussin and whining. Nor do I wanna say things are find as then I would be a liar.

I try to speak of working with faith as in working for God vs working for man....I can't ever get into a conversation like that. I am left alone in thsoe thoguths. So everyone I talk to work has nothing to do with faith or our spiritual lives.

So yeah I screwed up but I also took extra time and saved ourselves twice, I bet you it is forgotton in light of the mistakes. Strength means nothing if you have a weakness. Effort means nothing unless you are perfect. I hate sports as it brings out the worst in men. It is a sin to screw up anything on a sports page, but it's ok to cuss and swera GD all the time. Why is this?

I feel sickness coming on. Time for the day/nyquil combos again. Tomorrow I do get to start on the machine for the sleep apnea. So hopefully things will start getting better.

It's ahrd and having no one to talk to if even one that understand is that much more difficult. I no longer have an accountability partner, he stays too freakin busy. So I feel I am left to fend for myself once again and let my Thoughts run amok when I need to hear from others. My faith is hurting right now. It has been growingly difficult to really get spiritual and connected with God. I feel him there but its one way communication, I have not communicated back as often as I would like to.

Well now I better get on some financial stuff here soon. I have slacked off and bad things could come of this if I don't act soon.