What a day. Today was such an incredible day. So much that I really now need some focus and reflection time. I read several articles and one revelation came to me was the selfishness in my love, and I loving others as I want to be loved and am I loving in such a way that it reflects the love of Christ through me?

Then came Sojourn. We had to be there early and I just started helping right off bat. Now one thing was pointed out that I seem to point out me being there early all the time. I do not agree that it is all the time but there was some truth to it....Often times when I am not thinking about it I really boast about myself and accomplishments. So there was some truth to it and being that was one of the questions I had earlier today...The answer is yes I do much out of boasting or self worth. Even though my intentions may be honorable, I do much to seek...Well at least the boasting about it.

Now on the otherside when I do not boast about things I tend to get more attention than I think. After communion I snuck off to the back to help with the hospitality and serving the food. And then came the announcements. I made sure I could still hear it. Well I was called out for my work that I have done at Jeff Street. And even there was a note of thank you on the power point presentation. And me standing in the book with the whole congregation looking at me....What was I supposed to do? Now the good news I got three more volunteers for the lab and one request for tech support.

Now the called out part...In fact I was pushed further out into the open by a few guys much taller than me...I know who they are, I am taking names...And the announcer noted "Oh look he's humble" which I am. I did not look at it as something great just something I enjoyed doing. So I guess now everyone knows me :) So where is my answer I have been seeking? I think my role may be to support and serve. Not lead, not be a hero, or even Super-Tom, but just be there in the background getting things running.

Now with this in mind it does give me a great role model to look at in serving, Christ. There is the support factor and I guess that is a part of serving. But keeping in check that I support and serve selflessly and not for gain. Which was another point that was brought out as when I was being, spotlighted, the speaker said that I just did this and didn't ask for money or anything...Which I didn't. I just did. And it seems to be working out nicely.

So today it seems a spotlight has been shined greatly upon a lot. I hope to really reflect upon. Trent is back in town and one day we will get together and re-evaluate things as where we stand and our accountability. This may be the direction for me to become less self absorbed and really focus on God. To now start the path of service and support...Denying myself for God...

To know that what I have done with what God enabled me with has been greatly appreciated...Wow. I felt a place in a community. Now to hope this does not inflate my ego and to continue onward with great encouragement would be the best thing.

Good will come to him who is generous and lends freely, who conducts his affairs with justice. (Psalm 112:5)