That is the word for today, displaced. Kinda not been here nor there, just kinda been. Still settling in the facts of yesterday.

And my mom even called today again and so did my Uncle in Birmingham. I wasnt there for either call. It is hard. I am not Anakin Skywalker that can turn a switch on and be sith/jedi, as I cannot switch Mom and new family on/off.

I guess I need more time before I can. I don't know if I want a new family, all but a future wife. But it will take time to get to know hers as well. But there is no pain associated with it as I have from my mother. So do I get to know them or stay away? More time.

I do feel good as I just got off the treadmill. I can't seem to get anyone to go walking with me so I managed to listen to Dave Ramsey on my ipod and walked to it. It made a difference as I burned more calories than I normally do. All in 30 minutes. Wow I feel so much better.

I think Tomorrow after I wake up I will shower and get out of my apartment. It's draining right now spiritualy...well just not a good place to relax and think. I have not been able to think in the last 48 hours.

Monday will be fun. I can think of someone else at the homeless shelter, or men's shelter rather. I will monitor an actual lab while they use the internet and teach them. I can't wait. It feels so good.

I did get more outlined in my book. It is really starting to take shape, at least for a frame.

Well back to work while my blood flows...ipod + podcasts = ROCKS!!!!!!!! (sermons, music, talkshows, audiobooks)