Ok I can't belive that I read the entire Harry Potter :HBP book in one day. Talk about my head wanting to explode. So that was my fantasy break. Can't give the book away but I would give it a B.

Now back onto life. Today will be eventful. But looking at accountability into second gear, so to speak, has been on my mind alot. To the point of confessing sins, confronting them, and holding acountability for them as well. But maybe there are a few things physcologically I need to look into first. See what is going on in my mind and look for any traps or where these patterns start. Where these desires come from.

I know that last weeek I want to think it was three times God was able to lay things upon my heart, some convivting stuff. And now I can't remember them.

ANd for whatever reason I still have not been out filling out Job apps like I should. It's inevitable I need a second job but the thought of having to fill out apps again to get turned down after spedning alot of time saying the same thing over and over. I guess I have not focused enough on it but when I try to balance and budget I come up tightly short. I really need to get more cashflow coming in to get caught up. I would like to be ahead but for now I just want to stay afloat and catch up on all the old stuff I have.

Not to mention I want this car paid off within two years not four. And one bill I am paying now is cutting me very short each week. That and I messed up the budget this week I ate out too much. I dont want to suffer so I cant tell myself no often enough.

Time to look at some spiritual life again I think.