No explatives were used but this would be the one I would have used if i were to have.

Just talked to my mom for the first time in nearly a decade.

To set the story I worked last night. Got off work at 4:30am and made it home and bed about 5am. My boss calls me around 9:30ish am as some files were needed. Literally a few minutes after he called the phone rings. I answer it and it is my mom.

Nothing I can do but play along now. SO I kept things as neutral as I could. We talked for what Ithink is an hour catching up setting the records straight on a few things. But I kept my distance. Yes it has been nearly a decade since I last heard from her and 11 years since I had last spoken with her. But I was not about to try getting hurt agian. I was keeping so distant and neutral.

Dont get me wrong I was friendly but the emotions were dulled and not allowed to come out and play today.

God must be working in my life. as my one chance to tell her off and hurt her back or at least let her see the harm, I did not do it. She does want her sons back in her life and she does realize it is going to take some time getting to know each other again. SO this is good this allows me to keep the distance factor going.

There is still so much to let sink in. That and looking deep withing and re-evaluating forgivness. So I can see at what point I did. SO I know when it happens again. Not sure for now what's next. But just letting things go for now. Letting them be till then.

And now what to dowith my nap schedule today, all out of wack. But I'll manage that much.